Clouds fill my sky today and I find myself looking back at my cave. I woke up with the realization that I would have to let go of someone I deeply love and to let go of the hope of relationship. I’ve accepted and taken on abuse and anger and dark feelings from them for too long without responding as I should have from the start…with my own anger and with my own boundaries. My passiveness allowed the behavior to continue and sent a message that it was okay. Well it isn’t okay and my heart and soul cannot take any more of it. I have to be done and I have to put up my boundary and I have to stand firm. By taking this stance I may be eliminating all possibilities of reconciliation and hope for relationship. But quite frankly, there is nothing left for me to do.
I promise you one thing. I will not go back into that cave dungeon. I may look into its dank dark gaping maw, but I will stay outside under my overcast sky today and wait for the sun. I will continue working on my movie and I will pray and meditate.
BTW, this vision board/movie project is a time consuming project, huh? Let’s take our time and do it right and make it beautiful and make it something we can look at every day and be inspired by and excited by and proud of.