Today was all about living in the present and exercising creativity.
Steve and I had our first pottery class this morning. Remember our “Get a Life” day when I ran off and signed us up for a class? Neither one of us are experienced with clay, which made this all that more appealing of a class for us. It would take us out of our comfort zone. I did have a pottery studio for a couple years but I was dealing with the bisque stage of pottery, not the raw material of wet earth. Steve and I were the only new students. The other class members were reenrolled and were using the studio space for their projects. Gratefully, our teacher and other classmates were very welcoming, patient and kind with our lack of experience and skills. After the studio tour and explanation of tools, we spent three hours working soft red clay into a platter and two bowls that we created on the potter’s wheel. All of this was an exercise in staying present. Our hands and clothes were covered in clay (which is really fun to be getting dirty and elbow deep into energy grounding dirt) and our humility had to go out the window as we worked diligently to create a work of art that looked a lot like a slab of lumpy red dough. LOL!
A potter’s wheel is an exercise in focus. The wheel goes round and round and is controlled by a pedal. If you spin it too fast the wet ball of clay that you are desperately trying to center could projectile off the wheel and splat against whatever happens to be in its path. That almost happened to me today! My foot slipped on the pedal and my wheel accelerated to maximum speed. Red clay water and slip from my wheel started spewing circularly around me onto everything surrounding me, including myself, and my unbalanced clay ball began to levitate off of its platform threatening to hurl at my husband’s head. Luckily the teacher was quickly at my side and I was able to catch the clay ball midair and stop the spinning. I had to reassemble my wheel as everything was attempting to fly away, but no damage was done. Ok, I get it, no day dreaming aloud here! Needless to say we had a lot of fun! Our creations, although not yet complete, I am proud to say look remarkably like the clay projects that my children brought home from kindergarten. Steve and I think it apropos and timely to return the gifting gesture. Our children will each be receiving impressively homemade clay pots and platters by us for their birthdays and Christmas this year! Yes, I know, it is hard to stifle our excitement over this brilliant idea as well. We know they will be thrilled with these keepsakes!
As a follow up to yesterday’s post, Steve and I carried out our homework assignment and ceremoniously burnt the list items from our past and future that occupy our minds and steal attention from the present. The second part of that assignment was a Photoshop project where we create a canvas filled with corresponding photographs representing Past, Present and Future. We were then supposed to blur out the Past and the Future (the Present is in focus). I created my project this morning. It certainly isn’t anything profound or genius but I’ll share it here with you.
My day is winding down now and upon reflection I realized that my mood, my heart and my brain were interestingly still, calm and free of anxiety today. I felt light today. It felt really good. This must be what it is like to live in the present. I mentioned my observation to my husband and he said he noticed the difference in my demeanor today as well. I accep
ted his compliments and encouragement; however, there is the fear that this is a one step forward, two step backward journey. I pray I can begin to live more this way.