Last week my blog post was about acceptance and surrender to my circumstances. This week it is about faith and trust.
Part of the certification process in Heal Your Heart Coaching is to be coached as a client in the material. I’m in my second round of being coached in Debbie Ford’s Heal Your Heart. The first round brought me clarity to the circumstances surrounding my marriage and gave me the courage to change those circumstances. This time around I am working on healing the ending of that relationship and reclaiming my power. (Heal Your Heart work is nothing short of life changing).
And as I believe in no coincidences, I was blessed this week, to be exposed again to the powerful distinction of the Law of Divine Guidance. And boy, do I need this message right now!
I was able to accept and surrender to my new circumstances and I was able to grasp the solid facts of my situation, removing the story and meaning I put around those facts. But as I accepted and realized my situation, my ego took over and sent me into a frantic panic to figure out a plan for what’s next. I had to-do lists, interviews, and research and ultimately, I made decisions on a direction. That felt good. My comfort zone in times of uncertainty is to get up and figure out a solution. I’m a problem solver. I am very uncomfortable sitting long in uncertainty. If I feel like I’m moving, then it feels good, even if it’s in circles, I just need to be following a plan. This week was consumed with finding a goal and planning. Don’t get me wrong, that’s not a bad thing in and of itself. It’s vital to have goals and visions for our life so that we can measure all our decisions up against them. That is the perfect, and honestly only, way to make sure you get the life of your dreams.
But the problem is that I let the ego drive this week, and it brought along an inner-voice of impatience and fear. The fears that if I’m idle too long, nothing will ever happen, or that now is the time and I better get going or I’ll miss the boat, or what if I don’t have the skills, or what if I’m too old to start a career or what if no one is interested, or what if I’m just not able to succeed no matter what I do? And then when I listened to these voices, the momentum stopped, and I became locked in a frozen place of self-doubt. Does that sound familiar to you? Ugh! It sucks.
Luckily, the Universe stepped in and reminded me this week of Heal Your Heart’s Law of Divine Guidance. Everyone has their own spiritual practices and beliefs. Personally, I believe in a greater power that is looking over me (I call this power God or the Universe) I believe this Divine power whispers in my ear and conspires for the continued evolution of my soul. And I know from experience that my pain and struggle is the fertile ground where He plants the seeds for all the powerful changes, growth and evolution to sprout from. I’ve watched that happen in my life and in other’s lives repeatedly. So why is it so easy for me to let that ego take over? I have experienced Divine support in my past! I’ve experienced miracles and gifts and shifts that I never thought were possible! When I opened my heart to the realization that I don’t know why something is happening, and I trusted that it is for a beautiful, life-shifting reason that will be revealed to me eventually, it always does. In His time. And it is always magnificent and beyond my imagination! (Maybe one day, I’ll write about those).
So here I am today, reminded about placing faith in the Divine. As difficult as it is, I will quiet that ego fearful voice and trust that all will be revealed to me in time and that amazing things will happen when I surrender to the wise flow of life. I will lay down the oars that I have been rowing upstream with and instead I will let this raft float. I’ll keep my plans, of course, but I will perk my ears to hear the whispers and tune my eyes to see the tiny glimpses of where He is directing me to go.
I will not only be okay, I will be great! And miracles are going to happen again!