As you know, my life journey has taken me through several ebbs and flows of change and recovery that I have learned to embrace and appreciate as the natural process of life and growth. I understand how we need to contract and expand, back and forth, through the pain and the healing of our body and soul to emerge on the other side stronger and wiser. The past year and a half has been another time of contraction for me while I tackled another healing, and I am grateful for the whole experience. I did not like it. I am not happy about it. Those wounds hurt me physically, financially and emotionally. But I am grateful for it. And I will share what this experience taught me, at some point, with you all. 😊
But now, as I am emerging from this healing period, I feel energized and honestly, darned excited, to re-ignite my passions and shine my light in the world again! Let me share with you how I came to this energized place because it played out like a movie scene. For the past year, I settled into a nice, safe, comfortable pattern of working and living. But in the last few months, I grew increasingly restless. Then one morning, I was lying in bed, and a voice in my head, urgently said, “It’s time!” Now, I’ve heard that voice before. It was quieter and I dismissed it or put my head under the pillow. But this time, I didn’t hide. This time, my heart pumped harder and the butterflies woke up in my stomach like a childhood Christmas morning! I felt excited and inspired and responded back with,
“Hell Yeah! Let’s do this!”
That was two months ago. As I’m writing this, I’m still riding the high of excitement and inspiration from that moment. Admittedly, my fearful ego voice, that has been in charge the past year and half, is voicing her “concerns” about stepping out of my safe places. My challenge is stepping out and forward each day towards my dreams and passions, while reassuring that ego voice that we will be fine, we will survive, and we will succeed.
That’s where I am today. I have plans, goals and big dreams to move towards. I trust my intuition.
Is it scary? Yes!
That’s why I am asking for help from some of you who may be in the same place as me. Let me explain.
One thing I know about myself is that I am a people-pleaser. My M.O. has been to put my needs and desires aside to accommodate others and to make others happy.
Can you say “CO-DE-PEND-ENT”? [Channeling the voice of the little elf from Rudolph]
Often this meant putting my dreams on the back burner to be considered at another, “better time”. Interestingly, and all of you fellow people-pleasers out there know this to be true, that “better time” never arrives. There will always be someone or something who needs my attention and focus.
Now, don't misunderstand, I have accomplished things. Awesome things. I have met those personal goals because what I discovered to work for me, was to bring that people-pleaser into my process and to use it to my advantage. In other words, if I had someone or something keeping me accountable, I would get things done and usually with gusto.
I need accountability.
It was the partnership of a personal trainer that motivated me to be strong, fit and healthy through my twenties, thirties and forties. It was the structure of school and teachers that inspired me to excel at learning and resulted in two Bachelor degrees and two certifications. Corporate structure enabled me to be an outstanding, award-winning employee and having children molded me into a strong (may I say), darned, good mother. My many accomplishments were successful due to the structure I put around them, that kept me engaged and focused and challenged.
Does this resonate with any of you?
If so, let’s do something amazing for ourselves!
I have goals for 2020 and I’m excited to get going on them! Without accountability, I know that I will likely start strong then fizzle out as time goes on when those other things push my goals to the back burner again.
If you are like me, and you have your own goals for next year, then get excited!
Because I have a solution!
I am facilitating an Accountability Group that will meet for 12 weeks starting in January. The group will connect once a week via Zoom and we will each work towards a 12-week goal, keeping each other accountable, making deep connections and hopefully learning about ourselves along the way.
This opportunity will be powerful and life changing!
Are you ready to move towards your dreams in 2020? If so, click here and I will send you more detailed information. This will be a limited size group in order to keep it effective and intimate, so don’t wait too long.